Wouldn't it be nice if we were older, then we wouldn't have to wait so long

I let my mind get the best of me, and I'm really good at kicking my own ass.

So that's what I've been doing for the better part of the day- kicking my ass around. I see out of the windows that surround me that it's a beautiful day, but I can't seem to get past all the stuff that is going on in my head.

I've decided that I hate opportunists. They are in search of an unattainable, and will constantly be dissapointed in life. I seem to surround myself with them at times. As my sister would say, in her infinite wisdom, "There's no such thing as perfect out there. I know you're thinking 'of course I know there's no such thing as perfect' but deep down you're REALLY thinking 'of course there is such a things as perfect, and I deserve it!' but you need to shut that voice up, because, Margo, there is no such thing as perfect. As soon as you realize that, your life will be a lot happier." The only thing that really makes me hurt? I don't think too many people are lucky enough to 1) be smart enough to realize this on their own 2) have an amazing, perceptive, intellegent little sister like I do. So I'm walking around the world forgiving people for their flaws, while they are still holding mine against me. I think the cards are stacked against me in this game...

But, in the sprit of optimism, I'd like to note that I had an amazing weekend. Schuyler and I have our Home Depot/grocery store tradition (where, of course, we wander around aimlessly.) Bought a grill and that is making the "what's for dinner" question much easier to answer. I am reading Willa Cather's One of Ours and I must admit, it goes well with tea and a blanket on a sunny afternoon. Purchased amazing pumps, a dress, and jeans for very cheap prices...Went to Junkanoo (Bahamian Festival) on Saturday, and though I was freezing cold (because I insisted on wearing my new dress) it was a lot of fun.

Perhaps the best part of the weekend?

Riding around downtown on my $10 bicycle I got through Facebook Marketplace. If anyone else wants to sell me a bicycle for $10, that would be sweet. Or a couch.

Things to be excited about:
Justina coming to town
One day of work next week!
Dinner with Liz
New glasses tomorrow (which I'm sure to never wear...)
Nebraska to see my sister/bridesmaid duty for Kimberly in 9 days!
Camping w/ Schuyler (perhaps canoe-buying as well)

And, of course, I'm looking forward to dinner... he said we're going out!