No-no-no-no-drama

Today I'm so glad that I've erased so many things from my life that caused drama, bad feelings, and stress.

My life is so much happier now...

Sometimes you believe people are your friends, you will do anything for them. For me it was smoke cigarettes, be contantly judgemental, and let myself become obsessed with this self-worth that I honestly had not earned in the least.

Now I've totally mellowed out. I've maybe become a tad bit too bean-sprouty (replacing cigarettes with yoga and soda with water) I can proudly say it has been 10 months since I've had a single cigarette. And, I think the truest sign of my transformation, when people are smoking around me I never, ever think of asking for one.

That's not the same for soda-- I still want to grab the Diet Coke out of peoples hands and drink it down in all it's fizzy glory.

I've made new friends, older friends, happier friends. I spend my free time unconcerned with other people and more concerned about riding my bike or reading a book.

Don't get me wrong, I still have the best times. A quick inspection of my fridge would reveal several Guinness bottles and some Bloodymary Mix at hand at all times. My debit card still has numerous pub deductions. And well... I non-work appropriate high heels still outnumber my work shoes and flip flops combined.

And I feel good. Sometimes I miss the old days... it seemed more spontaneous and ridiculous (in a good way) than life now... but to be fair, I was wearing a whole lot of black back then. Today, it's white and blue and green and gold. It's less makeup, far less, and perfume.

It's nice.

And if you're reading this, my 'real' friends-- you are my truest ones. Some from far far in the past, some recent friends, but most of all you're my champions. You make me laugh constantly and care endlessly. You have never come and gone, you've always just been there.

It's a wonderful feeling.